Walking It Out

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  Sometimes the most difficult "send me" response from the Lord is being told to remain. We crave a deeper, richer, more intimate relationship with the Lord and are ready to be obedient to whatever and wherever He calls us... Then His response is to remain.  There are so many layers that come to my mind when I think about the difficulty of remaining.  The first thing that comes up for me is that I can get frustrated when told to remain. It's as if I'm on punishment, I'm being held back (as in not being promoted in school). My heart really wants to do more for Him but yet He instructs me to remain. My mind goes to self-righteous thoughts; what can I do differently, what did I do wrong...all centered on my behavior, performance and capabilities.  Lord, help me see the error in my ways. Titus 3:5 ESV "He saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit".

  Recently I found things coming out of my mouth that truly surprised me. I genuinely didn't know I was struggling. I didn't realize pride, judgement and criticism was rising up in me. And boy did it stink, it was horribly ugly and not okay at all. Not to make excuses but it started out as legitimate concerns but become a self-righteous stance as if I was the ultimate gatekeeper to protect others. When I finally saw it, I was having to balance out seeking God's help to uncover it all, renounce it, and repent all while fighting off the enemies attacks of extreme condemnation. I wanted to crawl in a hole. I felt like I didn't deserve to be in community, in relationship, etc.  I found myself hearing from the Lord that I've always fell short (and always will) and He's always loved me the same (and always will). That I need to continue to uncover my broken pieces so He can come in and I can finally allow Him to love me in these places. He even kindly showed me how th

  When I sit and reflect on where we are the strongest, and conversely where we are attacked the most, relationships come to mind. When sin entered via Adam and Eve, their relationship with God was hurt, as well as their own relationship (Adam blaming Eve). There are numerous passages of scripture teaching us the importance of fellowship, fighting for unity and not forsaking meeting together. We aren't meant to be alone. Just like the powerful impact His Holy Spirit has on us when we are in His presence, there's importance in our presence and all of us coming together. When we follow Christ we have His Spirit within us and His spirit touches others in our presence. We are designed by God to edify, encourage, and remind one another of who our Father is, what He is capable of and who we are in Him! Sometimes we are giving and sometimes we are receiving.  I'm continually in awe of His intricate and beautiful design. We are hurt through relationships but we are also healed thro

  It's okay to want more and more of the Lord. More of His presence, His healing, His wisdom, His leading, His love, His everything! In our natural life it's commonly seen as being greedy or a negative attribute to be craving and wanting more; being insatiable. However, those are just misdirected cravings. We are designed by God to want more and more of Him.  I've been in the book of Acts a lot this week and this morning I'm reading chapters 7 and 8. I'm struck by so many things in these passages but what stayed with me this morning is how we need to receive the Holy Spirit. I have been filled with the Holy Spirit for about 6 years now and I find myself trying to explain this importance to other believers. As I read in Acts 8, I'm noticing more that we need the boldness and the 'in your face' power of the Holy Spirit to reach the lost. It is with His miraculous signs, deliverance, and healings that even those deep into the occult were saved.  Peter and J

For the last few months I've been really walking out the simplicity in God's call for our life. I really try to boil down all of the complexities and find the direct path. I don't always succeed, I'm all too often distracted and easily excited by another shiny object but in the end I'm able to go back to the simple callings of the Lord.  I have a lot on my mind and heart but I'll try my best to simmer this down into a clear message. The more time I spend with the Lord over these years, the more discernment He gives me.  In with this discernment and looking for the simplicity in His calling, I'm noticing our need to be delivering people, including believers, from demonic torment. Jesus taught, delivered and healed everywhere He went. Why is deliverance and healing such a controversial topic even within the church in the US? The gifts of the Spirit are often hot topics too which keep many believers from the fullness of the Lord that they are granted but that&#

For the past week I’ve been in quiet reflection. I’ve been walking through and processing some things that are more personal. I considered writing about them in a way that doesn’t disclose too much but I felt like God kept telling me it was just a time for me and Him. I think it’s important for us to always be reassessing and listening for His guidance in all things. Not just the big stuff. I didn’t go through anything tremendously difficult this past week or anything I would consider too personal, but the Lord made it abundantly clear that I was to rest, and just lean in.  I’m sharing this because all too often I feel like we hear or know that we need to rest and lean in closer to the Lord but we find reasons not too; responsibilities, distractions, etc. Rest and quiet reflection time with the Lord is so abundantly important for our growth, healing, centering and ability to overflow to others. Psalm 46:10  “Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be

  I have just been reflecting on God's goodness these past few days and how well He takes care of His children. Even when we aren't in a place where we can fully see it, He's working. I keep thinking about a commonly referenced verse: Luke 6:38 Give, and it will be given to you. They will pour into your lap a good measure—pressed down, shaken together, and running over. For by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return.” This morning I started to see this verse differently than I have in the past. In the past I saw it as a promise for good works. More of a tenet for life about judging others and forgiving others.  During this period of my life I'm finding myself just following one step at a time. Literally, this is what He's having me do. I'm just constantly seeking His will and His plans and He's only revealing one step at a time and I'm doing my best to hear what I need to do and obey. To be honest, I'm a planner and it can be pr

I'm going to get a little more personal today, a bit vulnerable because I know God uses our pain, growth and healing in the Kingdom.  I genuinely believe this is my life verse: Genesis 50:20  You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.  God has walked me through so many things in my life and is continuing to do so. These past few months I've been struggling on and off with physical attacks. Or should I say, it's become more obvious to me that the pain I'm feeling and experiencing is not just a natural issue. It started becoming apparent to me while in worship at church. There would be times I walk into church or the presence of another believer and my pain would vanish. Then there would be times that during the heat of worship, when I was completely immersed in His presence, my body would start completely aching with pain and typically my throat would feel blocked which would make it

Do you ever have an idea or a concept you're trying to communicate but just fumble it up? It seems like that only happens to me when I'm either trying to connect by showing I care, or expressing something genuine in a form of a complement or encouragement. I'm not even talking about the 'insert foot in mouth' moments that happen when we're in an argument; yikes, that's a different post for another day! I've been observing a lot of the "stepping in it" phenomenon lately and recently went through it myself too.  Why does it hurt so deeply to be misunderstood when we're trying to express love, compassion, connection, and or admiration? When I was praying about this last night I felt like the Lord was showing how it brings up rejection. We are designed to be connected, love and care for one another but not find our value and place from these relationships. Nothing good comes for us or others when we have the spirit of rejection sitting upon us.

  Your tears aren't lost on me child. I see and feel you. You are seen and felt. All good things come from me and if the world acknowledges empathy as good, how perfect is mine? I sit in your pain with you, feel the agony, grief, loneliness and misery with you; wrapping my arms of perfect peace around you. Let me sooth you, let me love you, let me wipe away your tears and help hold your pain with you. In your brokenness I can show you all the more who you are to me; you can trust my complete and perfect love. Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 56:8 You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book? 2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. John 14:

  I don't know about you but I struggle keeping a consistent exercise routine up without having a goal to be focused on. I walk to keep my cortisol levels down and move my body as it was designed for. For other exercises I typically need to have a goal of working on improving myself in a sport. The first time I went snowboarding I could only hang in there half a day before my back was done and that motivated me to do workouts specifically geared at improving snowboarding. Four weeks later when I hit the slopes again, I performed so much better and it didn't wear me out at all. This morning I was pondering this and how it's similar with the spiritual. Our daily exercises of praying, being in the word and worshiping become more focused, intentional and amplified when we have direction, a purpose and a place to outpour what we have been given.  Just like sports and physical exercise, our bodies are meant to move. We are designed to share our gifts, share what God's doing i